Well Hello Old Friends

It's been a long time since I've blogged and that's a shame. Let's catch up!

So I've been planning to go back to video creation for a while now. This thing or that in life would get in the way, including my own apprehension. But there have been so many kind comments and well wishes left on my channels over the last year that it's softened me up a lot.

The one that touched me the most started off with, "I hope you are still following your dream."

And I won't lie at that time, I wasn't. I found that I'd forgotten what that even felt like. Late 2023 had me drawing back into myself a lot over some personal revelations that needed a lot of thought and prayer.

In 2024, my grandmother underwent major neck surgery right before I graduated and spent 2 months in hospital/rehab. Which meant I went into full-time caretaking thereafter and couldn't

work outside of home. I didn't even leave my home if the place was more than 15 minutes away for about 6 months.I switched gears, got a few professional licenses in life insurance aiming to bring things back around and to still be able to help others. That didn't quite happen the way I wanted either but I learned a lot, regrouped and went back to it.

On top of that, things with my business had fallen off a cliff and I couldn't stand to even look at my workspace for months, let alone be in it. So I didn't. I think I've put out a couple of patterns and a few posts this year but I know that its been nothing on the level that it was before. I haven't had the will or the time. And I hate that as much as I've hated a lot of other goings on over the last year.

I was heartbroken and discouraged over long standing relationships that sadly had to end and I felt lost. And I'm grateful for the reflective solitude that followed and the people that I've met along this long road that helped uplift me in other things and helped me to start valuing my potential again. I am also grateful to my community here. The reason that I'm writing this post today and I'm thankful for all your kind words.

Nearly a year to date of her surgery my grandmother fell (she's where I got the clumsy from 💀)

and went to the ER which scared the crap out of me. It wasn't anything severe, thank God. Anyhow by the middle of this year I was in a very dark place mentally and feeling stuck. There were a lot of soul deep crying sessions through a lot of false starts.

It would take a while to detail every little thing in writing but things started smoothing out in July of this year. THANK GOD. As things started to feel real, I was able to think clearly again and with new hope.

In my reflection, I realized that on top of being burned out that maybe I'd taken the wrong advice along the way. I re-evaluated who and what I was listening to last year and realized that I hadn't been encouraged by anyone with similar drive or aspiration. That doesn't make them bad people but it wasn't the right encouragement that I needed. That is why I'm supremely grateful for the other entrepreneurs that have filtered into my life, some understanding my exact spot. The insight and community there has been phenomenal also!

I guess the TL;DR of this post is that I'm coming back. Infiniti Crafting Co.'s channelversary is on October 1st and I look forward to seeing y'all so very soon on both YouTube and Rumble. 💖

I'm also working on a massive update to the Handmade Shop. In my 'down time' I've gotten through more of my pottery, written a couple of patterns and updated another, and am finalizing new merch designs among other things. So if you'd like to support the new content, consider checking it out or share items you think are neat.

God Bless and Happy Making!